life update // pregnancy thoughts
hi everyone! apologies for my long time away; sometimes a good mental break is good for the soul. a lot of NEW has happened to update you all on (it’s especially new if you don’t follow me on insta!). we launched our new stranded product, we moved into our idaho house, and just before Ryver’s first birthday this year, we found out we were pregnant, NATURALLY. it was such a crazy, yet sweet shock that took us some time to process. we were so grateful and so amazed that we could get pregnant! in our minds, we had not even thought about IVF round two for baby number two, but God’s plan is always so perfect.
THOUGHTS ON PREGNANCY // wow, this second pregnancy feels way different than the first. i was for the most part bedridden for the first 16 weeks. i feel many more braxton hicks contractions (a lot), my bump is bigger, my muscles ache, my fatigue is next level, i have acid reflux to the max, and i am way more ready to meet her and have her earth side (much less nerves about birth-yay!).
ON AN EMOTIONAL NOTE // because this pregnancy has felt more extreme on my body and more altering to my day to day, it has also felt a bit lonely. i was devastated by not being able to have my normal routine with ryv, and i have had to surrender way more to what my body needs this time around, even when i would rather do the more fun thing. this has equated to saying no to most social events, staying out of the sun more when normally i would be soaking in it all summer, and just being burnt out from normal household to-dos and daily activities with ryver.
because this is the case, i have learned to ask for help + it is tough when those closest to you don’t totally understand the intensity pregnancy has on the bod (and i say this with zero judgement). i was in that exact same position when my sister was pregnant - i had no idea what it was like until i experienced it. overall, pregnancy number two has been a tougher journey in every aspect. it is all leading to the most precious gift in the end, though! even though innate gratefulness is fully present, what other mamas can relate to that isolating feeling pregnancy can bring? it is as though understanding the sacrifice for your child starts while you carry them, which is such sweet preparation but also can be exhausting.
stay TUNED for fun updates coming — the nursery was installed just a few days ago and we are in the final stretch until we meet baby girl! xo